Weeks 41-44

I haven't blogged in the past few weeks but if I had it would have gone something like "I feel like crap, I feel like crap"

I have 4 more injections to get and had to battle the doctors office to get my prescription taken care of.

I think everyone that works in a GI office should be required to spend some time with a patient going through Hepatitis C treatment. Perhaps there would be some compassion.

The doctor told me that his staff said I was rude...You betcha.....no one in the office would commit to helping me even when I explained the urgency. By the way the prescription was faxed over by the pharmacy on March 31st. It's April 30th.....reallY??

I need to find a new doctor when this is over.

Week 41

The past few days have been quite difficult. More nausea then usual, migraines and the fatigue is worse then ever.

I keep thinking of the saying What doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Well, if that's true I should be Popeye by the end of treatment.

Relationships

I have really lost several relationships through this process. I am not quite sure what to make of it. For sure I am on edge....most of the time. I have though over the past couple of months placed virtually no expectations on the people around me.

Expectations are a killer for me. No matter what it is that we all go through I think we just want to feel validated. I don't want anyone to tell me how I SHOULD feel......I feel what I feel...it's my behavior that counts.

I wish I didn't feel certain things... and I am sure my addiction history proves that for quite some time I didn't want to feel anything at all.

I am not always right.....I know that....but I am also not always wrong. I think the slogan "Live and Let Live" is quite appropriate